Well, the last two weeks haven’t been that bad. My baby is already on a pretty nice schedule, and slept for a 5 hour stretch last night. I feel good! =)
After staying home from church for the previous 2 sundays, yesterday I switched off with my husband, so I could go for atleast the second half of Church. I don’t know if it was just being gone for a few weeks, or if Church was just especially good yesterday, but I was spiritually fed. One of the things I really like about my church is that on the first Sunday of the month (which it was yesterday), people from the congregation are invited to share their testimonies. Many times, I’m inspired by what others have to say, as they go through trials and bear testimony of how the Lord teaches them, or they recognize the Lord’s hand in their lives.
Yesterday, I listened to a sister who, like me, thoroughly desires to do what the Lord wants her to do, but she use to pray that the Lord would tell her what she should do. She called this the “lazy” approach. It kind of cut me to the quick, because that is exactly how I had been praying. This sister said that she had learned that SHE needed to have a will. She needed to decide what she wanted to do, and then pray to know if this was also the Father’s will. She said it’s when the Father’s will and OUR will’s come together, that great things happen.
This has totally changed my perspective. I’d been thinking I needed to focus on “just” being a mom. But that’s not MY will. MY will is to be a mom (and not “just” a mom, but a “good” mom too!) AND to do more. I don’t really feel happy unless I’m doing more, and doing more also helps me be a better mom. Realizing that, I feel much happier, and I’m looking for more opportunities to serve and share my testimony and talents.
It’s great NOT being pregnant anymore! I’m loving that, and the kids absolutely adore the baby. THAT has been fun. Here’s the latest picture, Enjoy!
