Crying over Veggie Tales

Well thankfully, my husband has been employed! We celebrated by going to a dollar movie, and fast food. It’s been 6 months since we did that. It hasn’t been a horrible experience (atleast for me), and we’ve definitely learned to budget our money a little better. Hopefully some of those habits will stick. It definitely feels better to know there will be a paycheck coming sometime this month. (Yay!)

Life has been up and down with the new baby. He is so cute, which helps. He actually has been pretty colicky the last month. I haven’t gotten very much of anything done. I’m a person that likes to do a lot with my time, so it’s pretty hard to look at my “todo” list and not cross off anything.

I’ve read a couple books though, which I don’t normally do, but since that’s something I can more easily pick up and put down… I read the biography of Phil Vischer. It’s called “Me, Myself, and Bob”. It was very inspiring. Phil Vischer is the creator of “VeggieTales”. He had a very religeous background, and his dream was to create a media that families could trust. He writes in his book about all his successes. He almost became another Walt Disney (one of my heroes!) before the crushing end, and he lost everything. He lost his company, went bankrupt, and had to start completely over from scratch. His book is not depressing though. He writes about what he learned from the experience. I was crying at the end of the book as he wrote about how he had to let go of “his” dream. All along he felt like God had given him this “calling”, but he was trying to do it all “Phil’s” way. Now he is letting God lead him wherever he should go. He’s the instrument, and God is the one playing. I love that analogy. He’s starting over, and I believe he is a lot more inspirational now than he ever was with “Veggie Tales”. (I never cried through a veggie tales movie!)

After listening to General Conference (which was wonderful), and reading that book, I’ve been thinking a lot about what my “calling” might be. Obviously, I’m supposed to be a mother, but I’m hoping to be able to share my music as well. There’s a lot I’d like to do. If I didn’t have children and a family, I would probably be pretty busy right now…. but I wouldn’t be as happy.

Someday I’ll have more time to put into it. I actually get quite a bit done in the moments here and there between diaper changes, and my bedtime. The Lord has blessed me to do that, and it makes me happy. When I get comments from my website, it just brightens my day, so that when I don’t have anything to cross off on my list of “todos”, atleast I touched someone with my music.

So, I guess this is just a reminder to myself, to slow down, and enjoy the moment.